Bad Poem: Explain, Myself, Again

Explain. Myself. Again.

Why do I have to explain,

When my intentions are good, I explain.

No one doubts me any more, so explain.

Why you think I’m not doing my job. Explain.

In the woods, I am lost in myself.

I hold everything dear to myself.

Among mule deer, I am silent myself.

Wondering why I am unkind to myself.

Everything is softness again,

I am walking this trail yet again,

I can’t believe I am troubled again,

With the problems I solved once again.

I find myself crying again,

Unable to explain tears falling again,

Filled with regret for myself again

Falling to my knees in the forest again.

Why do I keep my pain to myself?

Wanting to expand beyond myself,

But instead tucking into myself,

Again unable to explain myself.

Even to myself, I can not explain,

How I find words to explain,

How I find images to explain,

Again, I myself, have no way to explain.

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